The Wrong Fangirl Decisions

It’s been a while since I’ve written here about anything but in terms of fangirling there’s been little to justify much of a post. So that brings me on to today, what has prompted me to write now?

A lot of it has to do with one artist. In my last post I said that I was saving my concert fund to see this artist and as a consequence made sacrifices when it came to other artists. The thought of a particular show kept me going but once I found out that it wasn’t going to happen, I spent the concert fund on a computer. That I don’t regret however there’s still a part of me that regrets some of the decisions I did make and every so often my head likes to remind me of some of the negativity surrounding them. I still feel from time to time that as far back as my first concert from this artist that I should have chosen an alternative show.

Then this brings me on to the album signing. The last one was in 2012 and thanks to HMV’s over-zealous security guards, I left feeling upset and disappointed that I couldn’t even speak to the artist. I later realised that another disappointment the day prior to this signing could have sub-consciously altered my behaviour. I put it behind me, hoping for a more positive experience in the future but alas that was not to be.

Fast forward to more recent times. The artist announced a signing and later in the details emerged that to be able to go, you’d have to purchase a particular version of this album that did not feature any bonus content that I had decided that I wanted. To some people this wasn’t an issue but for me it was just a little bit too over budget when I had to consider travel costs plus the cost of the album that I was hoping to purchase. I had to say no but now regret it as I find out that it was a better experience than the one I did actually go to.

It now seems to have left me with an even sourer memory of the 2012 signing but I guess I have to look at it this way, at least I had the opportunity and the fact that I blew it is just one of those things.